so this guy...

I know that some of you are dying to know about this guy that I like. Lol well here's a little more info on him. He's a really great guy. He's Christian, plays bass guitar, snowboards, he's a mechanic. And the best part is he's saving himself for marraige which I think is totally awesome. He's not like most guys. He doesn't try to get in my pants every chance he gets. He doesn't even try at all which I love about him. When we hang out we just talk. About everything and nothing at all. It's a nice change. I just wish that guys would learn from him. Then there wouldn't be so many broken hearts in this world. I feel safe around him. I don't have to worry about anything, not a care in the world. Because I know that I can trust him, and that's something i've never known how to do. Until now. And I thank God each and every day for giving me the chance to meet him and get to know him. I thank my lucky stars. And now to God, I finally understand.

hmm...

I saw this on someones blog and just had to put it on mine. It's true and it's awesome. And it's a little brighter looking than the last post.

"Wait For The Boy...
Wait for the boy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heart beat, or will stay awake to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, but appreciates when you get all dolled up for him, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without make-up. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you... The one who turns to his friends and says 'thats her'."

I just only wish that something like that would happen to me. For once find a decent guy who doesn't just walk out of my life just as soon as he came in. I'm not too optimistic today so i'm guessing that'll never happen to me.

sooo... y ea...

Guys suck. I hate them. The only thing they're good for is well... nothing! Well except Joe. Joe is awesome. But other than that... GUYS FUCKING SUCK!

What's New

Well guys I got married today! Lol. So I am no longer available. Sorry guys. Corey got to me first lol.

Boys Are Cute

Lol so yea today has been a very interesting day. Some things that guys do are just plain cute. Like leaving a note in your car. ^_^ that was sweet. Haven't smiled like that in ages dude. But yea anyway. Have nothing really to say so yea i'm gonna go now. Bye All!!!

new quote

america
land of the smokers
home of the betrayed

that is the quote i came up with today. don't ask me how i came up with it it just popped into my head when i was driving around ^_^

Prayer Rug

Yes so I think I have become desperate. We recieved today in the mail a letter, with it a prayer rug. It reminds me of a chain letter type deal but it's not. I do not know but I figured why not? So I used it. I prayed. Mostly for two things. One is my grandma and the other has to do with love. But I hope all is well in the end. If anyone else has recieved this Prayer Rug in the mail, please do tell. Did your prayers come true?

when you look into her eyes

she's hurting deep inside
when you look into her eyes
can you see the hurt and pain
she lives with every day

she tries to run away from the lies
that seem to control her life
remembrances of her friends suicides
will never leave her side

it seems to her like people are dying
each and every day
thoughts of her own suicide
have even crossed her mind

she's living in the fear
of falling back again
she cries as she can't and won't
go down that road again

she's lost so many people already
and caused so much hurt and pain
she wishes she could make it all go away
erase the worlds pain

when you ask her what she's running from
she'll say she's running from herself
she's searching for someone or something
that will let her be herself

she want's someone to be there for her
to hold her while she cries
someone to say they love her
hold her as she closes her eyes

it took a lot for her to realize
that she still needs help
someone asked her what was wrong
and the words she wrote i quote

"i can't get away
from these thoughts inside my head
they just won't go away"
she writes, she's trying not to cry

she's trying to stay strong
for everybody else
but deep inside she'll realize
she needs to be strong for herself

she's holding on by her last thread
wanting to be free again
she's going to hold on to that
until the very end

so someone stop her from falling
or catch her as she falls
promise to always be there for her
she just needs to be held

she's fought so many battles
and won so many wars
you can still see the battle scars
placed upon her arms

they've faded over the years
but the memories shall remain the same
it's a miracle she's still surviving
while she's in so much pain

don't let go of the one thing
you've always wanted to hold on to
you never know when a miracle
just might come your way

when you find the one you love
hold them tight in your arms
never let them go
tell them that you love them before it gets too late

so if you love her tell her now
don't just let her fade away
she needs to know she's still capable
still capable of being loved

so grasp her and hold on to her
hold her while she cries
but never forget all these things
when you look into her eyes

Soooo happy problems lol

Yes the problems that most people wish they had but when they get they wish they didn't. There's this guy, totally cool and awesome. Went to school with him, got to know him a little bit. Never really hung out with him much except on a couple of recent occasions. Well apparently he likes me. I mean like don't get me wrong, I like him too, but not like that. I like him as a friend. And he's on the rebound. I don't do that whole rebound thing. Ruins friendships with the person. I wouldn't mind hanging out with him, but he's not really my type. And I like someone else. Whether that person likes me or not i'm not quite sure, it seems like it but I could just be mistaking it with friendship. But yea, anyway. I love this papa roach cd lol. I can relate to a lot of songs on it, now that's kinda creepy if you've heard that cd lol. I swear I am NOT a psychopath lol. Although that would be quite ironic now wouldn't it? Anyway i'm gonna end this post now. I'm not quite sure what to do about that guy though. He's going to remain nameless for those that know him. Although i'm sure they already know but hey oh well. Night all!